I rather get left untreated,then risk looseing my child...?

ask your son, he would tell you the right thing to do. if he says no dont leave me, then hes not ready yet. if he tells you to get treatment and not to worry and he wont leave you, then hes one kick-@ss child whos going to help you when he grows up, and you should get treatment. leave him at his friends house during treatment and therapy times, so he will be preoccupied and wont think about you too much.